They say when you hit rock bottom, the only place to go is up.
And I think that’s true in two ways.
It’s true that sometimes your life can so derail from everything you wanted, that any change from your current circumstances feels like a major improvement.
But on a deeper level, the only place to go for help when we’re down is up to Heaven.
I can still remember the seconds, minutes, hours, days, and weeks after he left. I can still remember what it felt like every morning: dangling my feet at the edge of the bed, wondering how I would put them on the floor. Some mornings I could barely sit up, let alone think about moving my feet anywhere but further under the covers. But then, those 3 precious children God gave me because He thought I would be the best mother for them came into my room. Those 3 faces, that’s what did it. That’s what made my feet hit the floor.
You might say I was on autopilot. And it felt that way in the moment. But looking back, I know God was my pilot. He gave me the strength to take each day step-by-step. How else would I manage my husband leaving, being a single mom, losing my sense of family, and my dreams whilst trying to keep my faith intact?
The past year I’ve experienced the worst grief of my life. Have you been there? Have you found yourself trying to make it through a cloud of emotion that feels like it is so heavy you can’t breathe? What helped you get through?
For me, I found encouragement online. Facebook groups of women who’ve also been through hard times, many of them also dealing with marriage separation and divorce, constantly reminded me to not lose heart. That encouragement made me want to give back to the community which had helped me so much. I felt there should be more people talking about the happy moments, sad moments, struggling moments, and humorous moments of the real-life, tough stuff.
That’s what I’m here to do. Y’all, the tough-stuff doesn’t have to keep us down. It can have just the opposite effect, it can bring us UP!
A Bible verse that I hold to is Proverbs 31:25: “She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.” (NIV) I love this verse because I absolutely need that God-sent strength to get through the week. I need to hear that I have dignity, because being a single mom is often lonely and not very dignified. You know, I think one reason I started Rustic Grace Co. is because it provided a literal, actual way I could clothe myself in the truths I wanted to live out everyday. (And, of course, some of the fun I wanted to live out, too!)
Welcome to my blog, and I hope that if you’re needing that same encouragement I do you’ll stick around. You’re my people!